The Queen of Unfinished Business

Yep, that's me. The Queen of Unfinished Business. I LOVE to start new things. I get the excitement, the rush, the passion to begin a new project, new book, new Bible Study, new workout plan (these are all the ones that are coming to mind right now because they are the ones sitting collecting dust somewhere). I start with energy. I start with enthusiasm and as time wears on and days and days pass by, my energy starts to fade. Heck, I have even forgotten most of my "New Year's Resolutions" at this point! It seems that life gets in the way of the things I want to do for myself. I find myself putting other things (the laundry, the screaming baby, the cleaning, the errands, the carpool, the obligations, etc.) all ahead of my own "list." My personal list that would allow me to have some me time. With a toddler and a newborn, who has heard of such a thing?? But I am getting worn down. I have never been the type of person of get any circles under my eyes from sleep deprivation and man oh man...if you could see me without makeup!!! I look like I just went 2 rounds with Mike Tyson. I am tired...so tired that I didn't hear the tornado warnings go off last week...and I'm a light sleeper!! My point is this. It's not just me being tired or other things getting in the way, although I love to use these as excuses. What is really boils down to is this- I get bored. The "sexiness" or the "newness" of whatever it is loses its appeal and I set it down, never to be heard from again. Well, my sister has inspired me this week. She is taking a fast from all things that distract her from God. She is setting down the internet, turning off the TV, cutting back on harmful things that go into her body (ie. fast and junk food) so she can recharge during this holiest of Christian weeks. I am inspired by her and while I am not internet or TV fasting. Caffeine is my lifeline right now so I probably won't be cutting that out either, what I am doing is taking something on to better myself. I have a fantastic Bible Study that I started weeks and weeks ago- The Frazzled Female. My goal is to pick it back up and if I can't complete it this week, I want to take a huge chunk out of it because I loved it so much when I was doing it. I am revamping my workout calendar, putting together something new for myself and am going to work hard to be diligent enough to make and take time to workout. My scrapbook that is sitting there that needs to be updated since Alaina's birth, yep, I am going to tackle that too and get caught up with the pages and events that have been going on. My sister, Jo, blogged about something that is sitting (at this exact moment) uneasy with me. It makes me uneasy because I am not doing it, any of it. She wrote about Seven Special Steps. 7 steps to a more fulfilled you...a fulfilled you in Christ. Things like: take time for rest (say what?!?), don't overproduce and spread yourself too thin (oops!), steward your energy and focus good 100% energy on a few things you should be doing instead of 50% energy of 400 things you are doing. Are you exercising and recharging daily (yeah, I'm not either)? So, it appears, my journey is never ending. It appears this journey to a new me isn't going to come easily and it's going to take a lot of effort and work, constantly. I need to be okay with that. So this week, my big prayers are for God to remind me to do what is actually important and to make time for the things on my list. Speaking of...I better get off here and get to work!!