The countdown is on

Less than 24 hours and I embark on my life-change. It sounds so monumental when I put it in writing but in reality, it is everything I should be doing anyway. Looking at all the changes I am trying to make and all the ways in which I am trying to be better, I realize how slacking I have become in so many aspects of my life. I have been slacking in taking care of myself, fueling and strengthening the relationship with my husband, not finding enough time with my kids, not dedicating enough time to encouraging Connor to learn and grow. I have been especially failing in my relationship with God. I am pretty certain that if I were to put 1/10 of my efforts into any one of these over the time I spend on Facebook or catching up on tivo, I wouldn't beat myself up as much. Please don't misinterprete what I am writing here. I don't think I am a horrible mother. I think I am a normal mom who delivered 9-weeks ago and has been trying to adjust to not only 2 children, but adjusting to one very sweet little girl with some very big health problems. I know I am not a neglecting wife, but I have had a few other things on my mind besides being supportive and encouraging of the things that Ben is dealing with in his life. I know I am not obese but I am uncomfortable in my skin and not feeling good about myself. I know I am not an atheist and I have not turned my back on God, but I am feeling sin-sick and neglectful of giving Him His due praise and enough of my time to thank Him for all the blessings He constantly showers on me. I will use my blog for the next however many days to keep a journal, if you will. Keep you updated on my progress. My high's and low's and everything in between. So here is the overall plan: Healthy lifestyle: Following the Biggest Loser 30-day Jump Start diet for the next 2-weeks and then alternating working out. On Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I will run the c25k program and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I will be doing some kind of cardio other than running and adding in strength training. Relationship with Ben: Date Night once a month and committing to spending one on one time with him without the distractions of the computer/phone/TV, etc. Relationship with my children: Turning off the computer/phone/TV to be focused on what it is they are doing and desperately needing from me. If I have learned anything, these years fly by too fast for me to look back and say I was too busy to enjoy my time with Connor and Alaina. Relationship with God: Dedicating time every morning to pray and read Scripture and then I am going to start reading the book, The Great House of God by Max Lucado. Alright, well.....tonight, I am enjoying lasagna and (hopefully) ice cream because tomorrow is begins!